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To That One Soul

To that one soul, who’s reading this, you’re free to be whatever you choose, to say whatever you want, to be whatever you like and you can sing the blues if you want.

To that one soul, you can say whatever you want, even if it’s wrong or right, it’s alright. You no longer need to see what people want you to see.

To that one soul, there are people who will be jealous of your shine but clueless of your struggle. You think that will matter in future?

To that one soul, I know you are tired and afraid, and you probably so close to tear apart in million pieces if someone hugs you, but there’s strength within you. Even when you feel sad, you still have a zillion other reasons to be happy. Keep fighting and keep loving.

To that one soul, there’s no problem you can create and there’s no problem you can solve. Don’t rely on booze and weed to stay happy instead find love and peace in your heart. And it’s okay to shout for help and cry, that doesn’t make you weak.

To that one soul, being sad and crying for a week during bad times and celebrating good things just for a single day is okay. But don’t you think it needs to be the other way around? Shouldn’t we celebrating more?

To that one soul, it’s time to get on the track and cause no fuss, get a grip on yourself and get it right. You are free to handle each situation in your own way to tackle whatever comes in your way.

To that one soul, It’s not just you, we all lost someone (some precious people) with whom we had a really good bond. But can’t you be glad for the people around you right now? Can’t we just appreciate it, enjoy it, feel the energy they emit on you.

To that one soul, there are so many reasons to believe in a better world. After all Love has more hits than Fear.

Oh me? How did my year go? Same old shit. Just different day.

Peace and Love.

Hey Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year from your secret Santa.

January 2018 so far:

From Profession to Passion
From final year Project to real time Project
From declaring war to declaring var
From Insiders Arena to Windows Latest
From “E:/bau badhu” to sorry that was by mistake
From Loosing People to meeting new
From things I like to things I write
From Nightmare to Dream
From Confusion to Conclusion
Life goes

When you will understand that it’s okay to be okay…!

Why do we have to be good at everything and anything we do? Why does this pressure to excel even exist on us? What’s wrong with being average?

Consider the time and energy that could be saved if we didn’t run behind excellence. Optimum utilization is the word. Perhaps the guy who is ‘Jack of all trades, but master of none,’ has figured out life.

If you think about it, being average is really easy. It’s almost effortless and just imagine the endless possibilities in which you could have invested your resources including time, sleep, food, booze you name it and it’s yours. Procrastination wouldn’t have been a taboo. Life would have been easier than pronouncing ‘Easy peasy lemon squeezy’ isn’t it?

No! I don’t have 9-5 job. I work a LOT. I stay home most days. I love my keyboard. I’m highly sensitive. I spend my days immersing myself in the personal growth world. Maybe in some ways I’m (definitely) not normal – some of the ways that I go against the grain of the society. And you know what? It’s okay

So yeah, I’m comfortably okay with the basic skills which I possess. I wonder when people will understand that it’s okay to be okay.


There is no room left for me to breath. Before I am completely awake, I can indulge in being somebody else. No one expect anything from me just yet. There is nothing to remember, so there are no burdens to carry. My fears don’t exists. Living feels so simple.


So many people around me expect from me. I can’t measure the weight of burden. My features do exists. Living is the most complicated I fo. The dead are still alive. Morning are sobering, to say the least.

But the truth is, I am just doing exactly what everyone else is doing – having nothing in my heart but being appreciated for lying and living. I am not even brave, it’s just too monotonous. Waking up, grooming myself for the world, a toy that just needs a twist to run.

Of course, I’m comfortably okay with the basic skills which I possess. I just wonder when people will understand that it’s okay to be okay. Everything that was, still is. So, weather I like it or not I pull myself together and I do it all again.

To Her

Okay, so on her birthday, instead of calling, sending message on social media, posting on her timeline, I wrote an email. Here’s an exact copy of it.

Well hey there, from there I usually starts my all email. But this one is different.
Happy Birthday!

Should I have to mention anything else? Oh yes I have to! Here it goes.

Our journey starts with the first semester college event “Event-o-fest”. Remember? Yep that one; when we build that capacitor-charger-sort-of-thing. Since then how much hangouts, tens of thousands messages, lots of fun, moments and what not?. Not to mention worst time in 3rd semester. 😦

Later on, after millions of unforgettable memory and hundreds of screenshots :D, I do realize that you are not just a friend or best friend you are more than that. You know, we all have that one companionship bond with someone in life, mine is with you.  But recent events says a lot; (you know what I am talking about) but it’s gonna catch on.

However the “The truth about being the girl who is always okay?” In all honesty, it doesn’t feel good. And that hurts, I know. In the rawest, deepest way, because no one notice just how lost you are. But the way you are handling whatever life throws in your way is just fascinating. The kind that gets deep into your bones. I know.

You’re playing a part that no one played before with me in the first place. It feels like memorized lines, and knowing when to smile whenever someone looks at you as to ensure they don’t catch on. It feels like never being able to ask for help, because you are usually the person who fixes everything for me. It feels like having someone to talk, having someone around always when I need.

Let me be honest here, I didn’t shared much thing about my life (experience, feelings) to anyone in the universe that I shared with you nor asked anyone for help. But the way you did it without asking, believe it or not I am never gonna repay that. Ever.

But today is the day that everything changed 20 years ago. You came to the world! I wish you HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you. For through the wisdom your days will be many, and years will be added to your life.

Oh and by the way, remember those screenshots? Yep that one, you asked me to delete! I still have that. Oops! (Oh! I am gonna pay for it.)

Cheers to you!
Your nerdy friend

I am a Liar

I am a liar who is stealing all the credits for smiling and living through all the small moments and calling it life.

But I know I am not brave, it’s just too monotonous. Waking up, grooming myself for the world, a toy that just needs a twist to run.

I live in a world that is so messed up. In justice, greed, hate, jealousy, on every street corner. In every heart. I live in a world where human worth is measured in bank balances and Facebook friends. Where the proud are exalted and the weak go unnoticed. Is it supposed to feel so pointless?

But the truth is, I am just doing exactly what everyone else is doing – having nothing in my heart but being appreciated for lying and living.


In peace, may you leave this shore,
In love, may you find the next, 
Safe passage on your travels,
Until our final journey to the ground, May we meet again.